I am the devils advocateMy heads pounding and crushingthere's so much pain insideI've hurt so manyI've broke so manyI've lost so manyits so hard to hideand as the tears roll down my facewatching hearts fall and break that cant be replacedthis is not methis is the person I forced myself to beputting on a hard faceshowing nothing at all will cause me painbut its in my headits pain and burning everywherepeople have hurt me so many timesand now I know whyI cant repair the hearts I brokethe hearts I put in so much painbut there's two words that I have to sayI'm sorry I'm ever so sorrybut if it helps I cry myself to sleepbecause I cant take what I said and didI deserve to be aloneI need to be aloneI cant hurt you any moreI'm a heart breakerthe devils advocateI don't deserve the things I getbut I feel its all my faultif I had just reminded you about those keysno one would have got hurtnot you nor me nor anyone elseI'm sorry
Their sleeping pillHolding in tiny tears,Keeping in ferocious fears.Screaming silent in my head,Wishing it was time for bed.But not a bed, how 'bout a coffin,Leaving life with all but nothin'.100 tablets she will take ,Cuts in skin decide her fate.And yet now all she does is but wait,There all hoping its not to late.But late it is and cry they will,She's going on their sleeping pill.
Blackoutwalking happyin the woodswhere soft snow layi thought you were my oneholding me in your golden waybut then you turnedfrom my angel to demonyou gave me to themlet them take me awayyou laughed all the wayas they pulled me downamd clawed at my facepulling hair out my headbruises all oversnow choking my mouthhands around my neckand pinning me downkicking and punchingthe curling meholding me downas they all joined inyet as i lay dyingyou were laughingand stood watchingnot helping metears dripped downas did bloodbruises lay bareand ripped out hairwalking happy in the woodswhere soft snow layi thought you were my onetill you let them take me awayi ran homefear in my eyestorn clothes and skinrunning from not them , but himthrew myself into my homeand lay in hard cold bedchocking on the feari cudve been dead ..
Just forget meI say I hate my lifeI most definatly mean itMy life was funMy heart was fulland yet how it changed so fastcrying in room cornersmaking scars oh bodily partswhen no sharp weaponslack of food beginsputting pain on inside aswell as outmy lifes no ride of joy and loveits a drag in mud through hate and dullmy hearts smashed to smitherinesmy heads been tortured to mental scarswhen you go my hearts going to diei thought it already hadyour breathing for meyour living for mewhen next we meeti might weepnot tears of my daily basisbut tears of happiness and joyyet i do not believe you will come backi do not believe you are going to rememberand forget me u willI have no importancenot pretty , not smart , nothing thats nicehating myself is what im good atmy hobby so forget me you will forget me
I love youYou must think because im with anotherThat they must be my one true loverBoy thats wrong if thats what you thinkYou may as well be on the drinkYou do not understand my heartEven though its tearing apartI love you more than life itselfThough it may not be in great healthMy love stands trueand all for youIt makes me sad that u think i do notlove you more than any one elseDo not fret do not regretU might but i will never forget
Sunlight of the summerThe drooping snowdrop of winterThe tear of the cold winter rainThe sunlight of the summerTo bring my hope againThe fright of the darkBeing alone in the nightYou walked in and saved meFrom my cold broken flightYou glowed in the heartless rainSaved my heart from breaking againIn the drift of the flowing blue skyYou make me feel againThe million peices of my heartThe shatterd glass of faithThe aqua ocean of my loveI am the one of which u saveThe blooming orchid of summerThe lily on the droplet of lifeThe sunlight of the summerIn all your hope and might